Saadhanam kayil undu!!

TOMORROW

To err, to forget, to give up, to surrender,
To lose, to fear, to dread, to worry,
To stoop, to conquer, to gain , to succeed,
To forgive, to understand, to be happy, to see,
To hope, to love, to smile, to enjoy,
To speak, to listen, to care, to be kind,
To seek, to search, to yearn, to live,
Tomorrow. . .

The dream of the date with the dentist!!

Putting braces and smiling away to glory to show the shining pair of teeth was one of my dreams right from 7th grade!! You can imagine how crazy I was! I always had a feeling that my upper dentures were not down to their places and that only braces could set them right. I also liked the attraction aspect of it. Everytime I talked ppl would notice it in amazement and wonder how I manage to have them inside my mouth all the time. And as usual it was postponed for many years!! Finally when it was time to get married I had the opportunity to have them. With great excitement I looked forward to wearing them :). I knew I would have four of my teeth removed so I picked up courage and went in to have a date with the dentist!

Surprises! I had the braces in my mouth even before my teeth were pulled out. And it pained terribly for two whole days after which I had to welcome a teeth pulling session. Two from the left side first. I had thought that two from lower, i.e one from left and one from right and two from upper same way. . . And it pained terribly for the next two days. And then one more to be pulled out from the right side. It pained and I missed my NET exam cos of it.. . I was already giving up and then the dentist told me that after a month I had to remove two more from the upper dentures. So five in total. And I shrunk to my seat and sighed a yes to him. I dint expect this,, nor the pain. I could not manage. I could not open my mouth or sleep in peace during nights. I could not laugh or eat what I wanted. Passive resignation. . I never thought that my lovely dream would cost me so much. . Now I wished I had not dreamt!! Life is crazy sometimes. . Ciao!!

What is everything. . .?

Everything is not all..There is more to it. .

Each thing is different,

Not as we assume sometimes. .

Lost freedom cannot be dreamt about again..

Unless you dont want it to frutify..

Sometimes we try new things..

To replace, to avenge, to experience, to keep us busy. .

And the bliss out of it depends on your luck. .

But the search for novelty remains. .

Forever and forever. .

The fone rings,

And there is this peculiar sound for that one call,

Which I was forced to set,

Cos the heart thumps, and sweat glands activate,

Sending the chill down my spine,

I gulp in air but it just wont go down my throat,

It stays in the mouth and then I am forced to send it out,

The first word, as sweet as ever, but as scary as it could get,

I think no end of myself, brave, bold, smart,

I picture myself handling it,

Hanging up, cutting down, uttering something,

But I give back the sweet word another word, this one sweeter. .

And then the dialogues are ones from that of a movie..

A put on, just like how it has been always,

So there is no escape whatsoever, and. .

I am enjoying this ride much more than all the rides I had,

From the time I saw this world!

License to Kill!!!! :)

The agreement was finally made and duly signed by all elders on the 30th, saturday, 11 to 11:50 am. He calls it the "license to kill"! I call it "Love Band". We looked like the big handsome teddy bear with the small frightened squirrel!! Ok I was beautiful..I cant stick modesty! The amount of tension I carried was equivalent to all the natural forces put together against humanity. I just wanted everything to go smooth with no frictions or any sort of unpleasantness. A wick that may be put out in the most casual instance, a sudden illness, a slight alteration in the climatic conditions, a frown or a bad glance, an unknowingly uttered word, were the most treacherous threats to the great pact that promised long lasting happiness( cliches!! ). Photographs, video and all other means of evidence were made and documented. The crucial hour passed and everything got settled. Then came the setbacks, a few of them, which I think was handled well by the organisers and the participants.
Horrible way of relating my engagement with Sandeep :)..reads like a report, but I prefer to use the journalist tone here to avoid the nasty comments I know some of you are capable of sending me as mails. Lols! People are calling it the best cherry on the cake!.. I am telling them the best is yet to come! :)