What's all thiss!!?? Don't ask me! I am as ignorant as u all!

There are certain days when u realise that you are actually NOT what you think u are! I realise i got it all wrong all these days. Now is the time for penance. Just help me shut my big mouth and keep all those hypocrites away from me god! Thanks for helping me out with my sem exams. Just that i got a lil outta mind kinds. Sometimes the world just gets ugly. Even the beautiful things appear ugly. Can't i just get back those days..the days when i used to sit by the window and write ?..How peaceful it used to be..No worries..No envisioning dark lanes and me caught up in the maze! shucks..i know i can't ..don't i? When dad and mum pointed out that ad on tv today my eyes brimmed but i had to swalllow my food and it went in as just a mass of tasteless, shapeless acc to me atoms...molecules..well ok call it whatever u like..I know there is no escape for me ouuta this..Don't u touch that dictionary! If im wrong it is cos i please to be so! Now the world has to see it... right?..but even otherwise the world saw it!.. There is no escape from the materialsim, the hypocrisy, the falseness, the insensitivity, lack of meaning and all sorts of other things which people don't have time to ponder on! Knowin all i dunno all! Reminds me of Duryodana in Urubhangham.. He was exalted right!?! Yes he was..his evolution..the transmigration to perfection..death rather than breach the code of conduct..He attained Veera sorga! Oh yeah Mahabali too..Maha vishnu's vamana incarnation that set him down to paataala as he chose not to falter from the words he had spoken without analysing. His minister had warned him but he was KING rite! yeah rite! KING! That was what Dusyanta too told..Only the king has to bear weights of depression after getting the highest power! And what bout the queen..yes ..sita.. in Uttararaamacharitham, who was abandoned by Sri Rama in the forest when she was pregnant with embryo, nine months, amongst the wild beasts of the panchavati?..She dint even know poor woman..wretched woman that she became, she threw herself into the ganges and lo and behold!..ganga carried her with the twins to Valmiki's hermitage? Where is the ganga that raises u wen u jump into it?! Where is it??!!! 

Star starer at the age of 14! ( dug out from the past)

The twinkling stars!

Nothing can be so bright,

To fill the night with light,

Nothing can be so exquisite,

To make us all so inquisitive,

On how these celestial beings,

Like dust darted fron heaven,

Seem so wonderful and illuminating!

I stood on my terrace wondering,

Who gave them the sheen,

As to where they came from,

But i knew that the lovely moon gave them the light.

They seemed to be shivering

Amidst the cool chilly breeze,

Like tiny fairies with light on wings,

The gaze gave me peace,

And i wished for happiness too.

And also thanked the almighty for his creation,

To guide our way through the night!

~`Sleep like a baby ~. .. Naaa.. Just read my texts!! ( supposed to be published in 2008)

The world's best lullabies cannot beat my text books!! I just fall asleep like a baby the moment I start reading just a few lines from 'em..! Till I open my book, I am wide awake and all ready to go for it..! What a disappointment..Anyhow today's exam was good enuf..! Today was yet another hot blazing day out here and the metallic insides of the electric train almost cooked me up..No a nice thing to even recollect.. Seems its the hottest day of the month..I don belive that..Freakin its like this everyday in Chennai!! Felt embarrassed that I dint know French today. . With Indian standard I have always been happy, but sometimes it does not give u a good feeling. .I will try workin on that. . That's an fyi for ppl who know French to help me ok!! And frens . . Patience is a virtue..I am not bloggin these days cos of exams..Will get back soon! That's my reply to all mails! But thanks sooo much.. Feels grt to know that ppl like reading 'em.. Chow!

Varnanjali Natyalaya

After months of procrastination, finally I mustered the courage to promote my dance school. I started on a very lazy note thinking I would drop it off in a minute or two, considering the bout of fatigue I was plunged into recently but it got interesting with editing videos on movie maker and writing captions and all that. There was something about watching and editing my own performance videos, I realised. I could see myself making mistakes, being awkward, trying to cope with the pressure of teenage, learning and unlearning,evolving with every year that passed by and felt good self reflecting. It was great to look back and see if it really mattered what I did now and also felt accomplished that I braved the winters of Canada and found joy in dancing at various venues. I also thought from the audience' perspective if all this seemed reliable and long lasting. Some questions are tough top answer as we all know time and tide waits for none.

Right now I am hoping my new venture ends in satisfaction and contentment. After all that is one thing we need besides air, water, food, clothing and shelter. Ciao!