Virtual Blues!!!

Had not i told u tat the very word " Technology" scares the hell outta me? Well i know that there are so many people out there who consider me a fool cos of this. But hold on! I had been quite happy when i was using the system all these days. Ample documents containing my study materials, my off-academics sribblings, my pictures, interesting information from the web, some nice modern art representations and also a lot of stuff taken from the image galleries on the web just vanished completely when i realised that a file got deleted as i had pressed one of the fatal keys on the keyboard!!! Do u know the amount of time i spent on the net to get materials for my assignments!!???! Well u'll never want to know to restrict a depression of great degree cos it not only made my streneous efforts go down the drain but also of the others who were using it. When the men came to fix the computer i thought that everything would remain the same but somehow life changed..both for the comp and me!! After hours of re-booting, the system's brain was washed off totally. It was empty, fresh, new, clean, in want of information to be stored and i freaked out like no one in the world! I did not know how to react, however i decided that after all literature is far far better that IT! Atleast it wont give u the jitters after keeping u really comfortable for a considerable period of time! I have learnt to secure my files on the system to avoid such tragedies and now hope for the best. Chow!

I never knew this!!!!

Sri Krishna in Bhagwat Gita says 'CHATUR VARNA MAYA SRISTIM GUNA KARMA VIBHAG SHAH' He says that on the inquiry of self realization, people undergo different step by step stages of awareness, and with it comes purity in their character. There are four steps or divisions of 'varna' according to ones' state of identifying with the self.

WHY THE HELL DO I GET NUMB AT TECHNOLOGY????!!!!

Well well well..so here i am amidst thousands of people who are running the mad race in the course of life..somewhere at the back of my head i feel i am satisfied, for the ooperwala has bestowed me with all wat i need..the question of getting all wat i want remains a mystery as in every other human beings' life. i don care bout it. jus like how right nw im not caring bout the punctuations and the shortcut spellings being a literature student!! but curse me! y the hell do i really get numb at the very word "technology"??? i fear to use anything tat is techno-driven( pardon me if tat shld nt be a hyphenated word) oooh.. i forgot.. i am not supposed to care bout tat..lol...let me c..not bad for a start..ok guys..this is my first blog..and bout wat i feel right nw..well u guessed it..my fingers r goin numb...yoga helps me better than this..probably i will get used to this..or rather in due course of time i must get used to this, admonishing all those authentic literary practises like using pen and paper for writing.to be a part of the school of fine arts i should say tat m proud of myself cos this diving into the world of Kalidasa and Shakespeare and of course the others was my own decision.people frown at me wen i say im doing an MA in eng litt..i have to correct peole wen they ask me, "did u say MA or MBA??? ok tats enuf...sacrilege!!! today was a long day..and i am half asleep already..will spill out my thoughts more often than necessary...thanksss ...zzzzzzzzz..............

I really dunno wat title to give to this one guys..getting terrified of exams will never do..i got admitted in apollo and was subjected to the most humiliating tests one could ever get subjected to. I got depressed and retaliated like real crazy..and wat did they do? got a psychiatrist to talk to me!! limits!!! The fact was that i was not informed bout the tests properly before they did it and i was really mad at them for that. I basically think that it is their duty to inform bout evrything to the patient to avoid cances of the patient getting shocked or insulted. For people who are nw thinking wat the tests were..ZZZIPP UP!!!

My hospital stay was really boring..The only friend who entertained me for sometime was a big black fly who was desperately trying to cramble up the satin curtain that separated my bed from the other bed next to me. I liked his enthusiasm, but he kept falling down reminding me of so many of my own failures so i turned away. It was after sometime that i heard a buzzing sound from my table and i looked around to see what it was. It was him. He had fallen off the curtain.He was now upside down, struggling to get on to his feet, but in vain. I could not tolerate. The next thing i saw was tissue paper and i tore a small piece just enough for him and covered him. Now the paper moved! I was tired... and i fell asleep. When i got up he was dead! I wish i had no emotions in me. ..

There was a nice young doctor whom i appreciated well above the others. Everytime he came into my ward i felt good though there was absolutely no exchange of words between us. I thought that something was atleast makin my stay in the hospital bearable, but phut!! the shutters closed down before even i cld think..The moment i got upset he thrust a paper to my mom stating that the hospital wld not be responsible for anything that i wld suffer from thereafter etc etc..I got enraged at his complete insensitiveness. I mean not his', but a doctor's insensitiveness! Thereafter whenever he came in to my ward i wished i could fling the pan near me onto his head. Guess what his name was..JOY!! Very joyful!! At last after three days of total boredom and hatred i was back home. Guys its just not exams..... but its hospitals too!! Chow!