Is there ever a fine balance?!!!

I knew when i looked forward to escape the present scenari sooooo much that it wil never materialise..And just like how happiness comes to u in bulk so wil sorows come to u..Everything seemed to have an obstacle today. I had to take print outs and the net centres were not open cos of heavy rain..I had to take cash from the ATM and again the rain said no to me...power cut..so the ATM near my place was not open. My friend and myself waded, swam and somehow went to the nearest branch and it was closed. Soon both of us started feeling sick and thought to give up but we found one net centre open and i got my print outs. But that was nothing..I had to get files to put my papers safely..and had to shop for few other things too. The boy next door who was ill with cancer had passed away suddenly last afternoon and that was enough for me to feel really low. He had been such a sweetheart and i could not imagine how his family could face the reality. Their lives would never be the same again. The flowers used to adorn our lives when we celebrate life are the same flowers which we strew when we leave this world. Sadness just clung over me like vikramaditya's ghost..Will there ever be a fine balance between happiness and sadness? Between life and death? Between expectations and their ends whether positive or negative? So as i was sayin i thought everything would just disappear with the fog..and darn this rain...everything has built up even more.. Shucks... Sigh..boo hoo wail..!! :-(

Looking fwd to a temporary escape!

In few days i'll be off to a different world of endless fog and mist where life's reality wil be blurred only to reveal in irregular intervals the splendid art work of the creator..Ooty is a haven indeed..As of now i just need to stare for hours at the trees and fog and whatever comes before us..The windings in the roads may be a source of inspiration..the hairpin bends, a source of courage to face challenges..the different hues of foliage and blossoms, a source of hope and colour in life..and the idea of getting away from home itself is exciting for the moment! All frustrations and confusions in life may just disappear forever with the fog! Chow!

The search for the pearl in the ocean! or is it something else?

The ocean is google ...and the other sites are oysters that might be there somewhere in the underwaters provoking us to get the pearls outta them.. Or maybe google is the huge fair which we attend and the other sites are the separate stalls that we approach to get our special dish or item..I am trying not to think that google is a library and that other sites are separate shelves or sections having books on each area of specialisation..can anyone beat those comparisons of our one and only GOOGLE whom we all adore when we need what we want??!! If someone can then i would reccommend them to stay mum.! i dedicate this blog to all those who are as freaked as me! lol! chow!

In the beginning is my end!

Thus..a tyrranous week comes to an end..no signs of relief..Today i had to sit with a lot of papers in front of me indicating the marks of various students in various departments in our college..My work was simple..I had to go through a whole lot of sheets which had the marks of all the internal assessments here and there..seeking..and then i had to set apart the best two outta them..deciding...and then i had to total them up and find the avg...calculating..and then i had to pen them down neatly in excel sheets...puting forth all what u did!! I hated mathematics and when i joined the higher secondary level i was overjoyed that i could abandon it forever but it seems it has got a special soft corner for me unlike all other things in life that i love! And then there was this encounter with the devils today as usual..Plus the added pressure of my massive tension..if i could call it that way...lol! Dint finish my novel til now..more to browse..more to know... But the fact is that sometimes we really need to accept the changes and things that are most unwelcome to us..For what is life without elevations and depressions?! like..as though all this is gonna help! sigh!

How come all at the same time?

Ok this is getting wierd..Today my long lost friend comes up to me with a funny stuff..rite now what i need is blindness, deafness and dumbness! And no progress in academics so far...awaiting a miracle to fall upon my life from the heavens..some source to have a grip on..And of course the fight continues... sigh.. :-(

The blues continue..

The pangs of pain when ur enemy triumphs ...the feeling of being eaten up raw..this is not life guys..its between life and death..just wish time could either go back or fly..sigh! :-(

Screwed up!

As usual my expectations for a bright sem goes down the drain..Well..it happens sometimes...just that that "sometimes" is "always" for me.. :-(

Varna to the rescue!

Saved another girl from the horriblest crimes she could ever commit ..! phew! Grow up guys..and dear victim we are rocking today! lol! :-D

Music is in the air!

I had to send some songs to my best buddy and today most of the time was devoted for it! After a loooooong time my home was wading in the notes that slipped out of me..There was imperfection as i was doing it after a long time but i furnished my memory with all what i had learnt as a child! and that was the best feeling..as usual films passed before me in my mind....nostalgia..and it was more pleasant with music in the air! :-) Chow!

VREEEEEEEEELLL!!!!!!

On four wheels today! ... Loved it though i messed up a lil bit! :-)

Cerebralcardiorexia!!!!!!

That's what i am going through! Help! But im LOVIN' it..hee heeee :-) Varna remembers mum's words three years back! Gosh! Love u mum! This is not shani dashaa ddddddddddd..Its raajayogam..eniki vaiyyaaa.... lol! look at me! okkkk..chow!

Perfect way to begin a sunday!

Phew! jus came back from a soul lifting experience of gardening in the backyard with mum! Believe me guys..two and a half hours of gardening is not a joke! Forget the sweat and toil..u need to encounter creatures that can scare u...alright.. atleast i got scared! Talkin bout those wrrigling friends who can startle u wen they pop suddenly from mounds of fresh earth..But i loved makin friends with them..guess i'll be friendly with class reptilia quite soon...! Some of the saplings refused to yield to to us but we made most of them happy...Mum was talkin bout how i must not say yuck wen i handle manure made outta dung and residual waste( yyyyuuuuccckkkk!!!)..lol! Its jus like handling a baby..need to get messy to keep it smiling always..! Reminded of CK now who told us bout how we are loafers to have moved away from nature..i thought he was taklin nonsense..but now i guess i agree with him..Wat can i say..just loved it..though i had to sacrifice my sleep! Thanks mumma! Love u lots! :-)

Epiphany...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Moment of revelation!!!!! At last i've come to believe that every dog has its day! Chow!

Yipppeeeeee!!!

Finally!!!!!! ....the end of a tyrranous semester!!!!..Was elated wen i drew the last line on my answer sheet today..! Can't believe that i actually am through them guys! Thanks for all ur prayers..! Gonna chill out for the rest of the days though my schedules are already planned!..Hoping for the best in the days ahead! Love u all! Chow! :-)

I know i got it all wrong!!! Time for penance!! Now the world sees it rite? But even otherwise the world saw it! Just outta minds kinds! Need to handle the mouth which sprews words! Gods.. do u hear that..u folks out there better do!

I am reminded of Duryodana of Urubhangam! He was exalted rite?! yes..his transmigration from evil to perfection when he saw as a film all his vile deeds! Rather die than to breach the code of conduct! And yes Mahabali too..who was sent to paataala as he dint falter from words spoken out without analysing..His mininster warned him, but he was KING rite? Yes KING..This was what even Dusyanta told..Only the kings had to bear the weight of depression after getting the highest powers! And what bout the queen? Yes..Sita..in Uttararaamacharitham, who was abandoned by her HUSBAND Sri Rama, into the wild forests of Panchavati, nine months pregnant with embryo, midst the wild beasts!..Poor woman, she dint even know bout it when she was led in the chariot..wretched that she had become, she threw herself into the Ganges and lo and behold! Ganges raised her and the twins to Valmiki's hermitage ..Where is the Ganges into which, when jumped we will be raised to hope? There is no escape for me from this world full of materialism, liqour, womanising, discrimination, poverty, doubts, hypocrisy, hatred..I just wish i cld get back those days wen i used to sit by my window and write..How peaceful it was..no concrete jungles, only the the sweet smelling breeze of the Neem trees and the school ahead..I know i can't , don't i? Shucks? Where is the Ganges o lords!?